Regarding RL, during christmas dinner at Dad's house, I came to the realization that it's not only my introversion that makes me uncomfortable about going to those dinners. There's also something that I would never be able to admit to any of my relatives, seeing how my Mom hates my Dad's wife and her family.

What makes me uncomfortable at the parties, besides introversion, is that I'm jealous of Dad's wife's family. They are a large clan, they are so close to each other, even those that are abroad, so supportive of each other and knowing each other despite being so large. Me, on the other hand, I only know my father's siblings and their children, whom I can go years without seeing, and on my mother's side, despite the fact that she came from a large family herself, and  most of that side keep in touch with themselves, mom never bothered to introduce us to most of them or them ot us. I only know a couple of her sisters and my grand-aunt. If I were asked, I wouldn't be able to tell how they are related to each other or to me.

And though I like the feeling that Dad's wife's family have tried to include me and my brother, and the matriarch actually considers us as two more grandchildren, I still feel like an outsider, because of conflicting emotions regarding the whole situation. Mom expects me to hate them, because of the divorce, but I cannot hate them at all, not even after Dad's wife made my life impossible (whether she did it because she had my best interests in mind or not, is something I will never know), and that, in turn, makes me feel like I'm betraying my mom.

Maybe I should see a therapist...

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The rest of this entry is pure fangirling over the usual stuff, so feel free to stop reading.

When it comes to the recent DC Comics reboot, I'm completely in the dark. Most of what I know, comes from ragerants from a couple of persons on LJ. Personally, since I didn't follow much post-Zero Hour, those rants don't affect me much. I'm mostly interest in whatever happened to Vril Dox in this reboot... not that I have actually gone out of my way to find out, or get the issues of R.E.B.E.L.S. I'm missing. I'm considering getting the trades.

And then this. Brainiac Girl. It's just a design sketch, so I'll reserve judgement on the newest addition to the Brainiac family tree, and in the meantime wonder about her relation to Doxie. But with that manly face she does look like Doxie became slimmer and grew boobs. At least the costume isn't skimpy.

Maybe I should go out of my way and find out.

And now I know what's bugging me about Digimon Xros Wars. It's the lack of family relations.

The family relations element had always been strong influence in previous in Digimon series, even when they weren't directing influencing the events. Even in Frontier where 99% of the story took place in the Digital World, there was the family relations element- it was actually the driving force behind Kouji's actions.

But in Xros Wars, family is null. We don't know anything about Taiki's Akari's or Zenjiro's family; Nene and Yuu do not feel like brothers at all; and Kiriha's dead parents and their influence, though hinted at and finally explained, felt more like an afterthought.

That, and the constant shots of Mervamon's cameltoe. Actually, her cameltoe creeps me to no end. It's a kid's show, for Frith's sake! And don't get me started on Nene's growth spurt on the Shounen Hunters. But I digress.

Now, I'm not saying that the character's relations with their families is what make Digimon... well... Digimon. It's just something that was there, and now isn't.

I don't even know why I'm saving the Xros Wars episodes, since I doubt I'll ever watch them again. Maybe I'm just waiting for something that my be interesting for my headcanon.

Heck, Gundam AGE, with it's art style all over the place, and the fact that it can't decide who is it's target audience, is much more interesting than the current Xros Wars episodes. I can't even figure out where Shounen Hunters is trying to go.

Speaking of Gundam AGE, looks like Sunrise has forgotten about Woolf's twitching "ears" and his sniffing habit. I miss those rather cute quirks of his.

And Grodek. Oh Grodek. He's so badass that he's not afraid of being arrested because he knows his crew will rescue him.

On other news. I understand perfectly well why that multiverse Digimon fic, starring Ryo and CyberDramon/ZeedMilleniumon has so many favs. It's Digimon after all. The fandom is so large that no matter what one writes, there's bound to be at least one person that likes it.

But the Beelzebub HecaFuru crackfic getting the same amount of favs on a shorter time period? It really baffles me. I mean, I'm writting it for my own amusement. And the two characters involve haven't even talked to each other in the manga proper. Furuichi's cheering for Heca-chan after the latter stopped Oga/Beel from taking of his clothes does not count. But somehow it has gained a readership of sorts. Go figure.

Feeling: Exhausted

Now playing: The Sidewinder Sleeps Tonite (R.E.M.)