After yesterday's post, I got into a really terrible mood. I used to have the bad habit of getting innapropiate guilt. That is, feeling guilty over a situation I have absolutely no control over. In my case, I usually end up feeling that if someone I know or close to me was having it rough, then I had no right to be alright. Not a healthy way of thinking, I know, but there I was, reverting to that habit. Of course, until yesterday I didn't even knew it had a name and I used to think that is was something everyone felt.

Somehow, I also got curious about these feelings, so I started looking up stuff on psychological websites. That's how I learned what innapropiate guilt was and realized that there was no reason for me to feel guilty over my cousin is going through.

It hurts, yes. But the best I can do is give him my support, keep writing to him and stay in contact with my uncle and aunt. Getting depressed and not live my life is not going to help anyone at all.

So I wrote to him yesterday. My aunt was going today to give him the letters from friends and family. He's asking for the results of a race next weekend, and on a letter that was scanned on Facebook, he did confirm that there really are no mareros at all in Mariona, despite popular belief.

So, yeah. No need to become another worry for those close to me.

And it does explain why yesterday I was making no sense at all.

Thanks for everyone's support.

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I did go to the Yume event yesterday and today. Got to buy some manga, some figures and got to see lots of interesting cosplays, all of which will get it's own entry tomorrow.

I will say... Chroooome!

Feeling: calm

Now playing: Kimo Rebino Uta (High and Mighty Color)